I’m sure you’ve had them: crabby days. Yesterday was one such day for me. I had not slept well the previous two nights, and the fatigue had set in big time. I felt tugged in so many different directions and wondered if I was making any difference at all. There was a health insurance mix-up that I am still trying to get worked out. It was cloudy, cold, and windy, with rain, sleet, or snow in the forecast…again…and I so desperately wanted some spring weather. Is that too much to ask for in the middle of April for heaven’s sake?!?!? And there didn’t seem to be enough coffee in the world to increase my energy level or to improve my mood. Yep. I was a crab. My friend Rebecca listened to me moan and vent in the morning, and my patient husband listened to me in the afternoon. Ugh! We’ve all been there, haven’t we? We’ve all eaten too much crabby cake from time to time.
Since I had so much to do, I worked at home in the evening. I decided to work on selecting the “hymn of the day” for the upcoming Pentecost season. This was not the most pressing item on my “to do” list, but it was a task that I knew would not make me crabby. In fact, it was just what I needed, because picking hymns did so much to improve my mood. I found myself singing songs from the hymnal, and for me, singing is a form of prayer. Singing “Change My Heart, Oh God” was just what I needed.
I got a full eight hours of sleep last night, and I woke up to a day promising sunshine and temperatures in the 50’s. As devotional reading, I have been working my way through The Reckless Way of Love: Notes on Following Jesus by one of my personal heroes of the faith, Dorothy Day. This morning, I read this: “The thing to remember is not to read so much or talk so much about God, but to talk to God. To practice the presence of God.” I hope I don’t have a day like yesterday for a very long time, but next time I do, I hope I remember to spit out my crabby cake and practice the presence of God instead!
Wherever you are and whatever your mood, I hope you can practice the presence of God today!